WHEN LOVE CALLS

There are certain moments in life where you expect love to come walking around the corner. You feel ready to jump in deep and see if you’ll sink or swim. Like autumn stepping onto the land and you know leaves are going to fall. Like snow belonging to a cold winter day. You know it will come, because everything is ready for it. Yet, most of those moments, love will let you wait. Knowing it has something much better for you in mind. You won’t believe it though, until the magic happens.

Someone for everyone

I believe there is someone out there for everyone, someone that will accept you for the way you are. A save haven from which you can grow into love, grow in life and learn from each other every day. This concept of what love was supposed to be, I knew it, I’ve read about it, more than once. And even though it was all around, I never understood what it really meant.

True love doesn’t know jobs, money, culture, space, power, looks or must. In love you can just be. There is no reason to be afraid, there is undeniable trust, there is no matter in what other people think or decide. There is just love. There is sitting in silence, because love doesn’t need words. There is grinning at each other, because love doesn’t need lust. There is smiling at each other, because love understands.

         If love can’t be, what is it love is?

Bright Red Car

Love has a habit of making you wait, just as long as you need, to accept that you’ll never know when love steps out of his bright red car, affecting you from the first sight. I went to Portugal, planning on working hard, setting up something I thought was most important. Knowing I would end up in the middle of nowhere, in a town as small as a castle, I wasn’t expecting to meet people at all. Learning the Portuguese language was not high on my to-do list.

One Afternoon

Then, one Monday afternoon I met a person speaking my own languages and talking went easy. He taught me a few Portuguese words and little things about the area and culture. About twenty minutes into the conversation a red car stopped at the side of the road. The first look into his eyes said enough. He bought a beer and a chose seat close to me and the conversation I was having. He intrigued me, I couldn’t help but stare. In that moment, I did not feel worthy of his love, yet.

Instantly

At one point he stood up, looked at me and asked me what I wanted to drink. In Portuguese of course, and I did not understand. Looking at the guy that spoke my language, he translated, and I thankfully refused. The newly opened coke I held in my hand was good enough for me.

But, I knew, in that moment, my future was set. I did not know him, did not speak his language, neither did he speak mine. There was nothing about him that I have ever loved before. He looked nothing like the ‘love’ I felt before. I never expected my ‘one’ to look like this. Still, in an instant, he was all I could ever love.

Understanding

When I look into his eyes, I understand him. When I look at his body language I know how he feels, or if something is wrong. He understands the few words I talk to him in English. I learned a little Portuguese. And it is enough. With help from translators, online and offline, we’ve come very far. It’s new, it’s growing, but it’s stable. I trust him and the other way around. There is a bright red future ahead for us, I know it. We just have to let the love be and accept that some things will be different. That I have to leave for a while.

Yet, if there is faith, there is hope for love. And if true love is making you wait, there is a dang good reason, take that from me.